I don't know anymore

So I'm in class right now, and I don't really know how to feel. See, I like this guy but he doesn't like me back so I'm really hurt about that. He made it seem like he was kind of interested. He was all flirty with me over Facebook, but the next thing I know he said that if I had actually kissed him that he would've run away and never spoken to me ever again. Its hard to be the person that always has to ask someone out and is never asked out themself. It puts a lot of strain on the heart and brain because you wind up overthinking the entire thing to see if it will even work out between the two of you. I hate the fact that nobody likes me enough to just come up to me and ask me out. I HATE MY LIFE RIGHT NOW.

Boredom

So I don't really know if anybody even reads these, but I enjoy writing these so I'm gonna continue with it. Well since all the juniors in my school are taking the practice HSPA I have to chill in my performing arts class; however, they are just sitting there watching a video that I really don't feel like watching so instead I am over in ISP for a period. Nobody is here because most of them went on a field trip to New York to see ground zero. I wish I could've gone but then that would mean that I would be unable to paint the set for "Hamlet, Zombie Killer of Denmark", and I want to do that so much. Well there really isn't anything else to talk about now so I guess I'll talk to y'all later.

Been a While

So it's been a really long time since I posted anything on this blog. I'm sorry that none of you have been kept in the loop. Well that should be over soon-ish. I'm now a senior, I have a job, and I have my permit. All new things that I will try to explain and elaborate in this post. Let's start with the fact that I'm now a senior. Woohoo, I made it to my senior year. So I started the year in regular classes instead of that ISP thing that I was in last year. I am having such an easier time with this than I was last year. I don't have to remember what days I have a certain class anymore or anything. It's all just normal schedule now.

Along with making it to my senior year I also got a job. I am employed at Six Flags Great Adventure. I am one of their zombies that come out every year for Fright Fest. I am making some awesome friends up there along with getting paid to scare the living crap out of people. My first official day to scare people is October 1st but we had a run through thing last night where we walked through our trails. My group walked through our entire trail and had a lot of fun doing so. Then we headed over through Main Gate and the Circus to take a walkthrough of the Manor, a new terror trail. After that we went through the Graveyard and headed over to the Asylum. When we got there they told us to wait outside while everybody got ready because they were going to put on an entire show for us. It was amazing. We were going to go over to my trail, The Demented Forest, to do a scare through but instead we went and got fed pizza. I'm going there tonigh,t even though I don't have work, because my friends work there also and since I work there my work ID counts as a season pass and tonight is season pass holder night.

Since I got a job my mom let me go get my permit. It is an amazing feeling to be going 75-80 mph down the highway. It can also be very scary when you do something that is wrong because you feel like you just almost got into an accident. Either way I really enjoy driving around. Sometimes my mom doesn't like it because that usually means that she isn't go to be driving for a while because I drive and then once we get to our destination my twin usually starts to drive and we just continuously switch off who's driving where.

Whelp the period is just about up and I have lunch next period. I really don't want to be that late for that so I'm gonna sign out of my computer after I give this little post to all you readers. Enjoy!

Senior Year

So I am no longer in ISP. Im back to walking around the school to get to my different classes. My English 4 class is very technology friendly. It's a lot like last year but with different people. My teacher wants us to use Gmail and Google Docs. So that is very much like last year. However, this year is mainly focusing on writing which I am not very happy about, in fact I'm hating that fact because I don't really like to write a lot. Hence the reason most of my posts are quite short. Well I got to go now. Bye.

Tarzan

So when I was a kid I always thought that you spelled this Tarazan but I have since then learned the correct spelling. Anywho, in middle school the drama club would go on a feild trip at the end of the year to go see a Broadway show. Well when I was in 7th grade we decided to go see Tarzan on Broadway. Can I just say that the experience was amazing. I had pretty good seats but not the best. Either way I loved the special effects. At one point Jane sings a solo song and toward the end she starts backing up and gets lifted up next to the backdrop. Her dress then spreds out to become a giant spider web and the spider drops down to attack her. Luckily Tarzan notices this and saves her.

Hurt

So my friend Paige and I are supposed to be in gym right now. You wanna know why we aren't? I'll tell ya. Both of us have sustained an injury within the past week. She stubbed her pinky toe, about an hour before prom and still went, then stubbed it 2 more times. So she can't participate because of that. Myself however, I have somehow pulled the hip flexor muscle which is right down the front of your thigh. It hurts to walk, it hurts to stand, it hurts to sit, it hurts to stretch it, it hurts a lot.

Jar of Hearts

So I decided that I would try and listen to "Jar of Hearts" by Christina Perri. Well I learned that she has her own website where you can join it and it's kind of like a social network but not really. Anyway I'm sitting in class listening to it right now but during lunch I think I'm gonna try and practice for my dance recital coming up.

Hasta la vista.

Pokemon Defense Tower

So you know how they have that game Bloons Defense Tower. It's like Bloons meets Lord of the Rings cause you have to keep the balloons from getting through the course. Well I found a Pokemon version of this game and it is awesome. Just wanted to let you all know.

Choir

So I'm part of a showchoir and we are changing how things are done around there. There is now a vocal ensemble and a dance ensemble. I was put into the vocal ensemble (much to my dislike) but now understand why. I am a great dancer so I will be in featured dances but I will be on a microphone for all the ensemble peices. I find it very nice to know that they think my voice is good enough to be a part of this ensemble.

Phone

So for gym they made us run/walk a mile around a track. I had my ipod and phone but nobody texted me so I just listened to my ipod while walking around. After we did the mile we went back inside and had the choice to do either volleyball, badminton, basketball, walking, or jump rope. I was walking at the beginning but wound up going over and jumping rope. I mainly just turned the rope but after a while I got really bored so I jumped in and was jumping rope while turning the rope at the same time. It wasn't uncommon but then my phone fell out so I put it on the post thing but then it fell between the post and the padding so the maintenance crew to unscrew the thing and get it out. So I have my phone back now.

Eye patch

So I'm having some really bad allergies today so I've been using a wet paper towel on my eye because it is being iritated. Well it was getting really hard to type with one hand and its not very easy to type while having your head tilted to keep the paper towel on the eye. So my friend Paige decided to make me an eye patch out of some felt and her bendaroos. Its funny to see me with an eye patch. Here's a picture.

Glee

EWWWWWWWW I'm watching Glee and they decided to do "Friday" by Rebecca Black. I was soo disgusted. Just felt like telling you all. Which basically means Ethan.

Testing

So I have to take this test for my Chemistry class and there are like a billion people around me right now so I'm having trouble concentrating. Oh well, I'll get around to it eventually.

Fifty Fun Facts (copying the idea from Ethan)

Well I guess I might as well do this. I have nothing better to do. Here are 50 fun* facts about me.

*Fun is a relative term. You might not find these pieces of information fun at all.

1. I am 18 years old.
2. My birthday is January 15th.
3. Most of my friends are online.
4. I like the series Twilight. (sorry but I do)
5. I also love the Harry Potter series.
6. I want to move to England.
7. I love Doctor Who.
8. I run a Doctor Who blog.
9. I watch Torchwood.
10. I'm really tall.
11. 6 foot 6 to be exact.
12. I spend all day on the internet.
13. My school has me learning online.
14. I like to perform.
15. I am uncomfortable with my body.
16. I am however comfortable changing in the middle of a parking lot.
17. I love listening to John Denver.
18. My favorite song by him is "Grandma's Feather Bed"
19. I am a Christian.
20. I have a lot of people who like me.
21. I personally think they are all just acting.
22. Wouldn't be suprised if they were payed actors.
23. I can't think of a single person who knows everything about me.
24. I can turn off my emotions.
25. It makes me a very not fun person to be around when I turn them off.
26. I get very depressed looking.
27. I can't think of much else to write about myself.
28. Damn it.
29. I need a better thesaurus.
30. I like grammar.
31. I will correct you on your spelling if you misspell something.
32. I read webcomics.
33. I LARP.
34. Even when LARPing I have trouble making friends as my character.
35. The characters I play lead more interesting lives than myself.
36. My ipod nano touchscreen was stolen in January.
37. My friend called me over spring break to tell me that she found it on her softball bus.
38. I have it back.
39. None of the music was changed.
40. I curse.
41. A lot.
42. I don't have a bank account.
43. I am going to Hawaii this summer for a week.
44. I play video games when I feel like it.
45. I hate my mother.
46. My favorite gaming company is Nintendo.
47. Nintendo means in heavens hands.
48. My friend writes plays that I usually try to be in.
49. I want to do everything there is to do in the world.
50. I'm me.

Lonely

I feel lonely all the time. No matter what i try and do I don't have any passion in my life. I need to find my purpose. I need to meet Churchill's robot man-servant who serves tea. It makes sense to me.

Even when doing things I like in real life I can't be excited about them. I need a new hobby or something.

Help, please.

Always Look on the Bright Side of Life

I need to remember about this song more often. It tells you that there is a lot of crap wrong with your life but you never have to worry too much because something better is always coming around the corner. Here are the lyrics to it in case you can't listen to the actual thing.

Some things in life are bad
They can really make you mad
Other things just make you swear and curse.
When you're chewing on life's gristle
Don't grumble, give a whistle
And this'll help things turn out for the best...

And...always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the light side of life...

If life seems jolly rotten
There's something you've forgotten
And that's to laugh and smile and dance and sing.
When you're feeling in the dumps
Don't be silly chumps
Just purse your lips and whistle - that's the thing.

And...always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the light side of life...

For life is quite absurd
And death's the final word
You must always face the curtain with a bow.
Forget about your sin - give the audience a grin
Enjoy it - it's your last chance anyhow.

So always look on the bright side of death
Just before you draw your terminal breath

Life's a piece of shit
When you look at it
Life's a laugh and death's a joke, it's true.
You'll see it's all a show
Keep 'em laughing as you go
Just remember that the last laugh is on you.

And always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the right side of life...
(Come on guys, cheer up!)
Always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the bright side of life...
(Worse things happen at sea, you know.)
Always look on the bright side of life...
(I mean - what have you got to lose?)
(You know, you come from nothing - you're going back to nothing.
What have you lost? Nothing!)
Always look on the right side of life...

I love this video. I can't stop watching it.

Pomegranate Lemonade

So I wasn't feeling all that well this morning so my mom let me stay home. I don't normally get to stay home because I'm sick, mainly because my mom doesn't usually believe me when I say that I feel sick. Luckily for me and unluckily for both of us I threw up on her when she said that I couldn't go because I was "faking". I think I might be having an allergic reaction to the Pomegranate Lemonade from Turkey Hill that I drank yesterday.

Anyway, I have another blog that I run where I basically talk about my feelings toward that weeks episode of Doctor Who. Do NOT judge me. I am a nerd and I am damn proud of it.

So my friend Paige and I were talking today and I learned that one of her favorite random movies is "Clue". You know, like the game but they have an actual plot. There are three different endings to the story and all of them are funny as hell. So we asked our teacher if we could stay during lunch to watch it on YouTube. He said that we could so we are planning on having a mini party in our little corner of the class. We will quote the entire movie!!!!!

Here are a few of the quotes that I found on the IMDB quotes for them.

Wadsworth: You see? Like the Mounties, we always get our man.
Mr. Green: Mrs. Peacock was a man?

Mrs. Peacock: Uh, is there a little girl's room in the hall?
Yvette: Oui oui, Madame.
[points]
Mrs. Peacock: No, I just wanna powder my nose.

Miss Scarlet: Maybe there is life after death.
Mrs. White: Life after death is as improbable as sex after marriage!

Wadsworth: You *were* jealous that your husband was schtupping Yvette. That's why you killed him, too!
Mrs. White: Yes. Yes, I did it. I killed Yvette. I hated her, so much...
[stammers]
Mrs. White: it-it- the f - it -flam - flames. Flames, on the side of my face, breathing-breathl- heaving breaths. Heaving breaths... Heathing...
There are a few more but I don't feel like cluttering up my blog with those. Have fun with these, and if you watch or have watched "Clue" let me know what you think of it.

Starters

Hey guys, my name is James. I'm bisexual and proud of it. I support LGBTQ rights to their fullest. One of my favorite people of all time that isn't famous is Jenna Anne. She runs a youtube chanel called Lesbian Answers. It's really awesome you should probably check it out sometime soon.